I imagine that this is what it would be like to try to restrain a struggling porcupine with bare hands. The harder I try to hold on, the more you struggle, and the more I'm hurt. It's best to just let go and move on, for both of our sakes. You clearly don't care enough to want to stay around, and frankly, I'm tired of fighting to keep you around. No sense keeping you if you don't want to be kept.